Influenster Dove Dry Spray

We have been trying the Dove Dry Spray. I actually really prefer it over regular deodorant. It left me feeling dry all day and it smelled amazing. My only con is that the can does not last very long. I got mine in the Cool Essentials scent. It was so clean and crisp. My husband got his in the Extra Fresh scent and it smelled very good also. It claims 48 hour protection but I don't see how that is possible at all. It did last throughout our workday no problem. But I feel like 2 days is an exaggeration. I would repurchase this product. 

"I received these products complimentary from Influenster for testing purposes."

#TryDry

#Target

Vox Box Sally Hansen airbrush legs.

To create the perfect airbrush legs I did these steps.
1. Freshly shaved legs
2. I put some lotion on the rough parts of my legs and ankles
3. After that soaked in I then evenly spread the SH ABL on my legs
4. Enjoy your nice new tan and the confidence it brings.

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@SallyHansen

#AirbrushPerfectLegs and #contest 

•      I WAS NOT COMPENSATED FOR THIS POST, HOWEVER I DID RECEIVE A SAMPLE FOR MY REVIEW.  ALL OPINIONS ARE MY OWN AND NOT INFLUENCED IN ANY WAY.

#GoPROFOOT Product Review

I received the Profoot Triad Orthotic Insole and the Profoot PediRock from Influenster.com for testing purposes.
First, let's start with the Triad Orthotic Insoles I put these in my sneakers for working out. I have used them the past 2 weeks and they make my feet feel so comfy. Usually I have foot pain and with these it helps them so much. It is so easy to just put into your shoe and if you need to you can use the little glue dots to hold it in place. I haven't had any issues with them slipping around though. So far I have no complaints. And that is a good thing! 
I have used the Pedi Rock a couple of times. As my feet are very rough I am one of those people who always forget to take care of my skin. This rock is amazing though. It is squishy so that it is not difficult to hold or use on your foot. I am very pleased with this product. 
I can for sure say that when these are ready to be replaced I will happily spend money on them!!

GoVoxBox

I received three flavors of #NextStep shakes from @Influenster  #GoVoxBox and the Jaxx shaker cup, for testing purposes. I have tried all three flavors.

First, the berry I did not like. I was expecting it to be really tasty. But it had a strange aftertaste and was way too sweet.
Next I tried Vanilla it was also super sweet but definitely better than the Berry. I would not purchase it though.
Last I tried the Chocolate as I was expecting it to be the best one any way. It sure was! I still feel like it is not enough for a whole meal replacement though.
The shaker cup works pretty well. Only complaint is that sometimes powder gets stuck on the Jaxx and wont come off. Doesn't happen every time though.

From them I also received Profoot Triad Orthotics which are amazingly comfortable in my sneakers at the gym, Profoot Pedi Rock which is amazing and gives me smooth feet! 

Aqua Spa Bath Soak in Lavender/Chamomile it smells so good and is so relaxing! 

Muller yogurt coupon I tried the Raspberry and Dark chocolate. It was really yummy and I have already bought more. 

Blue Diamond Blueberry almonds. I honestly didn't know almonds could get any better!

Don't drink the water.

I knew eventually it would happen. Someone would say something that would make me want to scream. Now, I know it's not their fault they don't know everything I have been through in the past couple months. But what am I supposed to do besides stand here and smile? Everyday it is like pretending everything is okay and how I am fine with it all. How am I supposed to be okay with struggling for infertility for over 6 years, having a miscarriage, and having both of my ovaries removed? How is it not that bad to some people. Especially the ones who have children. How is you having arthritis worse than everything I've gone through? It all just keeps piling up. I am sick of being belittled about what happened. Yes, I get at least it wasn't cancerous, but really that's the least of my worries when all I can ever think about is never having my own children. I am bitter and the feeling sucks sometimes. Sometimes there is comfort in it, though. I just don't get how people that shouldn't have children can and others can't. I often find myself wondering what I did to deserve all this crap. I can't stand that saying 'Everything happens for a reason.' Well if there is a reason for this all. Someone please tell me.

Oh Friday. The update on life edition...

Wow, how life has changed in the past 3 weeks.
6/16- Thursday:
 It started with going to the Dr. for the possibility of gall stones. That appointment ended with an ultrasound that changed my life. Ultrasound techs should never be allowed to leave a room and tell you to wait. They found something and I was sent home with an appointment for a CT Scan and no answers. That night involved severe pain and an ER visit with a CT Scan. I finally got some kind of answer, a massive growth on my ovary and the possibility of cancer.
6/20-Monday:
 I went for another appointment with my regular Dr. I had some more bloodwork done and found out the growth they saw was about 30 cm (11.81in). I was then set up an appointment with a surgeon for 6/21.
6/21-Tuesday:
 This appointment changed everything. He said they would be removing that ovary through laparoscopic surgery on 6/23 and after they removed it pathology would determine if it was cancerous or not.
6/23-Thursday:
 I was a nervous wreck. I don't think anything can prepare you for surgery. I had never had to deal with that and I would never want to again. I went in at 845 am surgery was set for 1030 am. We were told it would last about 45 mins. I said my goodbye to my husband and his mom and they wheeled me off. The anesthesia is crazy and puts you to sleep so fast. When I awoke in the recovery room I knew something was wrong. I was hurting way more than I ever imagined and everyone was acting so weird. I finally got to go to my room and the clock said 245pm. I asked my husband if he knew what happened and he said no. So there I am laying knowing he is lying and I don't want to freak out so I just wait. His mom leaves to get a drink and he looks over and says "Okay, I need to tell you something. They had to remove both ovaries. It was bad." All I could say was okay.
6/24-Friday:
 My surgeon came to talk to us. I had numerous cysts the two biggest were the sizes of a football and a basketball. I still have my uterus in case we choose to use someone's egg with my husbands sperm. But honestly I can't even figure out how I think about that. Adoption is also an option.Everything miraculously turned out not to be cancerous. Although I was waiting for it to be because everything just seemed to be getting worse and worse.

  So after an incision that hurts like hell going up my stomach, the loss of my ovaries and all possibilities of having biological children, and removal of 42 staples I am completely numb. The sadness comes in heavy waves. I am sad for the many things in life we will not be able to experience the ways we wanted to. I am sad that not only we don't get that but our families don't either. It comes when I see the look on a friends face that they feel sad for me. Through all this we have seen the selflessness from others. Nothing from this time will be forgotten. We will never be able to thank anyone enough for their selfless acts of kindness.
 Well thank you for reading my story. Bed is calling my name for I decided to go back to work tomorrow. I cannot stand being stuck in the house anymore.

Friday Night Leftovers (I Haven't Blogged in Forever Edition)

Finally it's Friday!!

• Obviously, I feel like it's been a long week. I am on day 5 of working 6 straight days. The joys of working somewhere where there are only 3 people. 
• I actually love my job though, how often does that happen.
• I bake dog treats. It's really fun.
• My last post was in August. I am really going to try to keep up with this from now on. 
• I've changed my blogs name. I love it now.
• I have a new blog design courtesy of: http://moozoodesigns.com/ She's pretty awesome!! 
• Things have been so out of sorts lately. But I' need to dedicate an actual post to that. 
• Three of my dogs have kennels now. It's been the best thing. 
• Worst part of that is when we leave the house two of them bark really high pitched like they're screaming. 
• I wish the rain would stay away and it would just be sunny and warm. I could also do without the humidity. Thank you. 
• What do you do when you don't agree with a friends choices? Really bad choices. I think it;s at the point where the friendship is done. 
• We threw a surprise party for a friend last Saturday. She's still surprised. 

And with that head on over to Danifred for the rest of Friday Night Leftovers. 

Friday Night Leftovers

• This week went by way too fast and I feel like I didn't get everything done I wanted to. I realy need to find the motivation to organize our room and office more. One day I'll find it.
• I went swimming today at the gym. The outside pool was freezing. I bet that thing was 60 degrees. I had to swim inside in the heated one. I just wanted a couple more swims outside before fall got here. I am sure my skin will appreciate it later though.
• My friend Tina and I were talking today, we both have had such a bad year with friends. We have both been in situations where that other person was just not a good friend to us. It has made us grow up some and really appreciate the friendships we do have. We both were just so nice and willing to please those people and we never got that back from them. But now that we are done with them we can focus more on the people that matter.
• In less than two months we will be coming up on our 2 year mark. It has gone by so fast. I always think of how differently our lives could be right now, with a year old running around. Then I try to snap myself out of it before I go to far into the dark mess. It's still a very fine line for me.

• I am making spaghetti for dinner, which is my husbands' favorite meal. I need to mention that I absolutely despise eating spaghetti. He is so incredibly picky. So everything we eat is his way because I refuse to make 2 meals. And it wouldn't really be fair to make him prepare his own meal after working all day when I can do it myself since I stay home.  

Have a great weekend everyone. 

Texas

 We left Thursday morning. We is my Dad, his wife, her mom, my sister, niece, and me. My five day weekend included swimming in the most amazing salt water pool ever, eating delicious BBQ food, having a few beers, and shopping. 

 It was so good to see my family. My Grandma who is so warm and inviting. I just loved being able to spend more time getting to know her. Cousins who I haven't seen since I was probably 7. We celebrated my Aunt getting married. He is so wonderful and treats her very well. 

 Monday it was time to get back to reality and I can tell you there is nothing like walking in your front door and being greeted by the four most precious dogs in the world. I of coursed missed the hub, who I never (and I mean NEVER!!) want to be away from that long again.  It's good to get away but coming back home is definitely the best part!

Motivation and Extra Fluff.

I need some serious motivation. Losing weight is like my top goal for myself. I am hoping that losing all of this extra fluffiness will help us conceive. I know the goal and I know what the outcome is something I want more than anything. Yet I can't motivate myself to do it. Anyone out there have any tips? I need to research some sites I am sure there is some kind of support group for motivation somewhere. Right?!?!

Your Little Angel.

I found this poem online at Since my due date was going to be the 23rd of this month I just wanted something that put how I was feeling into words. When I read this I couldn't stop crying. I just can't believe this day came so fast and how different our lives could be at this moment. This day is bittersweet. Our 3rd wedding anniversary is the 24th and every anniversary I will think about our baby.


Your Little Angel

Forever will I love you
You will always be my mom
As I sit with angels I look down at you and point proudly
See . . .See her . . .over there, That's her!

Did you know I could hear your thoughts at night
When you used to lie in bed staring, rubbing your hand on your belly
Looking up at the ceiling in the dark wondering things . . .
Who I would look more like . . .
About how my laugh would sound . . .
My First steps . . .
Books that you would read to me . . ones with pictures . . .
"I like Those!"

The park . . .how you would walk me in a stroller to play on the swings
How about after I ate ice cream the dog excitedly licking my
face almost knocking me down . . .
You just smiled when you read that . . I could see you

Do you know I call you "mommy"?
When you are in the kitchen I pretend I am there also and you can see me
I sit at the table and draw with crayons
I made a picture for the refrigerator
Yellow, blue, red and green
Look its of you and me with a sky and trees
I gave you curly hair . . .

Easter . . .that's my favorite
I always think of you holding my hand taking me to church
One of my socks keeps falling down

Mommy . . .I like the way you kiss my sisters goodnight
on the forehead and tuck them in
I play with them in their dreams
They don't know me but if you ask if they ever
dreamed of playing with a little girl
they would say yes . . .
That's me . . .

Do you remember that bird each early spring
that used to always return and sing
It would have been right around the time of my birthday
That was me to . . .
I would sing "I love you"

I am always along side you . . .
Sometimes you can feel me
A brush against your dress, a breeze on your face . . .
that's when I kiss you

You have always kept me in your mind and heart
Thank you . . .
One day we will be together in heaven and you will cry
and lift me in your arms and I will hug
you so very tight and never let go . . .

But for now I have to . . .

No matter where you go, what you do, I am with you
Always know that I am "Your Little Angel"
I love you mommy . . .

Bye . . .

Struggling through.

We (the hub and me) have been TTC for 3 years last May. A few months before that we had decided that this was it. We were going to put devote ourselves to that little person we wanted so badly. I always knew it was me that had the problem. I always knew it wasn't going to be easy. How did I know? I couldn't explain it. I still can't. I found out in that May I had PCOS. I cried and screamed and have hated it every second.
I was put on Metformin. Those pills were horrible. I hated how I was always sick. Then in August I finished my 1st round of Clomid. I was late but no pregnancy that month. It was my second month September that worked. I found out on October 23rd that I was indeed pregnant. That was absolutely the happiest I had ever been. Just dreaming of what the rest of life would be like and how everything would be surprising.
On October 28, 2008 I started to miscarry. I was exactly 6 weeks pregnant. I will never forget how I felt that entire day. I woke up knowing that it just wasn't the one that was going to stick. I never want to feel that hurt again. But as time goes on I think I become bitter. Bitter towards women/girls who get pregnant without even trying. Who don't even want their babies. Or can't even raise the kid they already have.
So how do I become less bitter? And now the struggle- of finding the courage to work and put myself through all of that again not knowing how it will turn out. How do I do that?
So my question to you that have gone through this what helped you overcome it?
I desperately need advice.

May 13th, 2008

So I had my 2nd doctor appointment this morning. She just talked to me about my bloodwork which was good except I have 2 hormones that are out of balance. And considering that with my other factors she determined that I do in fact have PCOS. Which I was expecting anyways but just to hear that it is definatley that is a little hard. She prescribed me Metformin which is usually prescribed to people that have diabetes. But has recently found that it helps women with PCOS. i will be taking that because of the insulin resistance in my body. Also because it helps get your hormones back in check, will also help me loose weight which is extremely difficult right now because no matter what I do I have zero energy.
Down sides to this medicine is that it'll make me sick and extremely irritable. Which if you ask Jason I don't really need help with that. =) I will be taking 750 mg twice a day. Hopefully I can remember. I go back on August 4th. Hopefully this medicine will help my body to ovulate. Otherwise I will be given Clomid which makes your body ovulate. I am mostly expecting that. And hopefully I will only have to do one round of it. So I am trying to stay optimistic and just take care of myself right now so that when I do get pregnant there will be less complications. i don't want to have a high risk pregnancy and I don't want to put my baby in danger.
So we are hoping that if everything goes well by September I will be pregnant.

So my appointment was pretty much what I was expecting. I might have PCOS which is Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I am being put on a prescription of Norethindrone which is supposed to start my period and I have to go back to the doctor in about 2 weeks. They took 2 huge tube-thingys of blood that will help them determine other things as well. My meds are still at Walmart because they are slow. And I can't sit up there all day. My next appointment is May 16.
And she will check to see if I am ovulating. I am glad I did my research before I went in there because I was prepared for what she might say. She is a really nice doctor so I am happy about that also.

Here is some info on PCOS if anyone is interested::

What is polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS)?

Polycystic (pah-lee-SIS-tik) ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a health problem that can affect a woman's menstrual cycle, ability to have children, hormones, heart, blood vessels, and appearance. With PCOS, women typically have:
high levels of androgens (AN-druh-junz). These are sometimes called male hormones, although females also make them.
missed or irregular periods
many small cysts (sists) in their ovaries. Cysts are fluid-filled sacs.
How many women have polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS)?

About one in ten women of childbearing age has PCOS. It can occur in girls as young as 11 years old. PCOS is the most common cause of female infertility (not being able to get pregnant).
What causes polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS)?

The cause of PCOS is unknown. Most researchers think that more than one factor could play a role in developing PCOS. Genes are thought to be one factor. Women with PCOS tend to have a mother or sister with PCOS. Researchers also think insulin could be linked to PCOS. Insulin is a hormone that controls the change of sugar, starches, and other food into energy for the body to use or store. For many women with PCOS, their bodies have problems using insulin so that too much insulin is in the body. Excess insulin appears to increase production of androgen. This hormone is made in fat cells, the ovaries, and the adrenal gland. Levels of androgen that are higher than normal can lead to acne, excessive hair growth, weight gain, and problems with ovulation.
Does polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) run in families?

Most researchers think that PCOS runs in families. Women with PCOS tend to have a mother or sister with PCOS. Still, there is no proof that PCOS is inherited.
What are the symptoms of polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS)?

Not all women with PCOS share the same symptoms. These are some of the symptoms of PCOS:
infrequent menstrual periods, no menstrual periods, and/or irregular bleeding
infertility (not able to get pregnant) because of not ovulating
increased hair growth on the face, chest, stomach, back, thumbs, or toes—a condition called hirsutism (HER-suh-tiz-um)
ovarian cysts
acne, oily skin, or dandruff
weight gain or obesity, usually carrying extra weight around the waist
insulin resistance or type 2 diabetes
high cholesterol
high blood pressure
male-pattern baldness or thinning hair
patches of thickened and dark brown or black skin on the neck, arms, breasts, or thighs
skin tags, or tiny excess flaps of skin in the armpits or neck area
pelvic pain
anxiety or depression due to appearance and/or infertility
sleep apnea—excessive snoring and times when breathing stops while asleep
Why do women with polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) have trouble with their menstrual cycle?



The ovaries are two small organs, one on each side of a woman's uterus. A woman's ovaries have follicles, which are tiny sacs filled with liquid that hold the eggs. These sacs also are called cysts. Each month about 20 eggs start to mature, but usually only one matures fully. As this one egg grows, the follicle accumulates fluid in it. When that egg matures, the follicle breaks open to release it. The egg then travels through the fallopian tube for fertilization. When the single egg leaves the follicle, ovulation takes place.

In women with PCOS, the ovary doesn't make all of the hormones it needs for any of the eggs to fully mature. Follicles may start to grow and build up fluid. But no one follicle becomes large enough. Instead, some follicles may remain as cysts. Since no follicle becomes large enough and no egg matures or is released, ovulation does not occur and the hormone progesterone is not made. Without progesterone, a woman's menstrual cycle is irregular or absent. Plus, the cysts make male hormones, which also prevent ovulation.
Does polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) change at menopause?

Yes and no. Because PCOS affects many systems in the body, many symptoms persist even though ovarian function and hormone levels change as a woman nears menopause. For instance, excessive hair growth continues, and male pattern baldness or thinning hair gets worse after menopause. Also, the risks of complications from PCOS, such as heart attack, stroke and diabetes, increase as a woman gets older.
What tests are used to diagnose polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS)?

There is no single test to diagnose PCOS. Your doctor will take a medical history, perform a physical exam, and possibly take some tests to rule out other causes of your symptoms. During the physical exam the doctor will want to measure your blood pressure, body mass index (BMI), and waist size. He or she also will check out the areas of increased hair growth, so try to allow the natural hair growth for a few days before the visit. Your doctor might want to do a pelvic exam to see if your ovaries are enlarged or swollen by the increased number of small cysts. A vaginal ultrasound also might be used to examine the ovaries for cysts and check out the endometrium, the lining of the uterus. The uterine lining may become thicker if your periods are not regular. You also might have blood taken to check your hormone levels and to measure glucose (sugar) levels.
How is polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) treated?

Because there is no cure for PCOS, it needs to be managed to prevent problems. Treatment goals are based on your symptoms, whether or not you want to become pregnant, and lowering your chances of getting heart disease and diabetes. Many women will need a combination of treatments to meet these goals. Some treatments for PCOS include:


Birth control pills. For women who don't want to become pregnant, birth control pills can control menstrual cycles, reduce male hormone levels, and help to clear acne. However, the menstrual cycle will become abnormal again if the pill is stopped. Women may also think about taking a pill that only has progesterone, like Provera®, to control the menstrual cycle and reduce the risk of endometrial cancer. (See Does polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) put women at risk for other health problems?) But progesterone alone does not help reduce acne and hair growth.

Diabetes medications. The medicine metformin (Glucophage®) is used to treat type 2 diabetes. It also has been found to help with PCOS symptoms, although it is not FDA-approved for this use. Metformin affects the way insulin controls blood glucose (sugar) and lowers testosterone production. Abnormal hair growth will slow down, and ovulation may return after a few months of use. Recent research has shown metformin to have other positive effects, such as decreased body mass and improved cholesterol levels. Metformin will not cause a person to become diabetic.

Fertility medications. Lack of ovulation is usually the reason for fertility problems in women with PCOS. Several medications that stimulate ovulation can help women with PCOS become pregnant. Even so, other reasons for infertility in both the woman and man should be ruled out before fertility medications are used. Also, there is an increased risk for multiple births (twins, triplets) with fertility medications. For most patients, clomiphene citrate (Clomid®, Serophene®) is the first choice therapy to stimulate ovulation. If this fails, metformin taken with clomiphene is usually tried. When metformin is taken along with fertility medications, it may help women with PCOS ovulate on lower doses of medication. Gonadotropins (goe-NAD-oh-troe-pins) also can be used to stimulate ovulation. These are given as shots. But gonadotropins are more expensive and there are greater chances of multiple births compared to clomiphene. Another option is in vitro fertilization (IVF). IVF offers the best chance of becoming pregnant in any one cycle and gives doctors better control over the chance of multiple births. But, IVF is very costly.


Medicine for increased hair growth or extra male hormones. Medicines called anti-androgens may reduce hair growth and clear acne. Spironolactone (speer-on-oh-lak-tone) (Aldactone®), first used to treat high blood pressure, has been shown to reduce the impact of male hormones on hair growth in women. Finasteride (Propecia®), a medicine taken by men for hair loss, has the same effect. Anti-androgens often are combined with oral contraceptives.

Before taking Aldactone®, tell your doctor if you are pregnant or plan to become pregnant. Do not breastfeed while taking this medicine. Women who may become pregnant should not handle Propecia®.

Vaniqa® cream also reduces facial hair in some women. Other treatments such as laser hair removal or electrolysis work well at getting rid of hair in some women. A woman with PCOS can also take hormonal treatment to keep new hair from growing.

Surgery. "Ovarian drilling" is a surgery that brings on ovulation. It is sometimes used when a woman does not respond to fertility medicines. The doctor makes a very small cut above or below the navel and inserts a small tool that acts like a telescope into the abdomen. This is called laparoscopy. The doctor then punctures the ovary with a small needle carrying an electric current to destroy a small portion of the ovary. This procedure carries a risk of developing scar tissue on the ovary. This surgery can lower male hormone levels and help with ovulation. But these effects may only last a few months. This treatment doesn't help with loss of scalp hair and increased hair growth on other parts of the body.

Lifestyle modification. Keeping a healthy weight by eating healthy foods and exercising is another way women can help manage PCOS. Many women with PCOS are overweight or obese. Eat fewer processed foods and foods with added sugars and more whole-grain products, fruits, vegetables, and lean meats to help lower blood sugar (glucose) levels, improve the body's use of insulin, and normalize hormone levels in your body. Even a 10 percent loss in body weight can restore a normal period and make a woman's cycle more regular.
How does polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) affect a woman while pregnant?

There appears to be higher rates of miscarriage, gestational diabetes, pregnancy-induced high blood pressure (pre-eclampsia), and premature delivery in women with PCOS. Researchers are studying how the diabetes medicine metformin can prevent or reduce the chances of having these problems while pregnant. Metformin also lowers male hormone levels and limits weight gain in women who are obese when they get pregnant.


Metformin is a FDA pregnancy category B drug. It does not appear to cause major birth defects or other problems in pregnant women. But, there have been no studies of metformin on pregnant women to confirm its safety. Talk to your doctor about taking metformin during pregnancy or if you are trying to become pregnant. Also, metformin is passed through milk in breastfeeding mothers. Talk with your doctor about metformin use if you are a nursing mother.
Does polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) put women at risk for other health problems?

Women with PCOS have greater chances of developing several serious, life-threatening diseases, including type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease (CVD), and cancer. Recent studies found that:
More than 50 percent of women with PCOS will have diabetes or pre-diabetes (impaired glucose tolerance) before the age of 40.
Women with PCOS have a four to seven times higher risk of heart attack than women of the same age without PCOS.
Women with PCOS are at greater risk of having high blood pressure.
Women with PCOS have high levels of LDL (bad) cholesterol and low levels of HDL (good) cholesterol.

The chance of getting endometrial cancer is another concern for women with PCOS. Irregular menstrual periods and the absence of ovulation cause women to produce the hormone estrogen, but not the hormone progesterone. Progesterone causes the endometrium to shed its lining each month as a menstrual period. Without progesterone, the endometrium becomes thick, which can cause heavy bleeding or irregular bleeding. Over time, this can lead to endometrial hyperplasia, when the lining grows too much, and cancer.

April 1st, 2008

After about 2 years of trying to have a baby with NO LUCK at all. I have an appointment on April 29 th to see what is going on. We are in such a good place right now. We have a house we plan on buying in a couple years. Our relationship is better than it has ever been. We have our family. Well the people that matter most to us anyway!
But we have been waiting and wanting this for so long. And it is very disappointing and heartbreaking when it has not happened. There are many factors that may prohibit someone from conceiving that a lot of people are not aware of. I get so frustrated sometimes. In our hearts we know that we
will be great parents.
I am so nervous and anxious about this appointment though. I have so many questions it's hard to remember them all. But hopefully we will get
some answers and options.